There are two types of people in this world.
Type one is people who wake up, know what to do next, loving their job, never act aimlessly, be in the “flow” state more often, and when they hit the pillow at night. Poof! They are gone to the dream world in seconds. The cycle repeats.
A different type is the ones who wake up, not really clear about their days ahead, loving some part of their job, browse around at work, occasionally in a “flow” state but most of the time not. And when they turn off the lights at night, hit the pillow, and un-poof! They did not sleep and start thinking. Thinking about something, something they want, lack, crave. Some dreams they’d like to achieve, some ideal they’d like to become.
This writing exists because I was the latter type. So, I raise my body from the bed and write down what’s on my head. Why couldn’t I go to sleep? Am I not happy with my life? Am I not grateful for what I have? How can’t I just accept everything and be at peace? Why I anxiously lying on my bed thinking that I have to change, I have to be successful, I have to finish my book, I have to switch career, and so on.
Wait, there is another type of people. The one that is more like no. 1 whose life seems aligned with their expectation but turns out they were unable to sleep well at night. So, they continue working until they feel exhausted, had few hours of sleep and back to their work again. The cycle repeats.
Is there a right or wrong about this?
Wait! There is another type. The one who is at peace with whatever state they are in, may or may not work, and able to sleep quickly.
Hold on, I raise from my bed to write. But some people kept trying by closing their eyes lying for god knows how long and hoping to fall asleep soon. Sometimes they are afraid to look at the clock and keep their eyes shut hoping for a miracle to happen.
I almost fall to that one. But I choose to raise and write instead. I know if I force myself to sleep, I will be more anxious and I’d forget about what I was thinking. I better preserve what’s on my head as soon as possible.
Which one is the right type? Which one is the best and which one is the worst?
Well, I don’t know.